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Sat, 08 Oct 2005 10:57:10 GMT

You came to me in my dreams. I swear it was you.
You told me you were doing okay, I hope that that's true.
I never see you anymore and it scares me.
I want to know if you really are okay.
But I guess I'm just going to have to believe what I heard.
Even if it was only in a dream.

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 04:52:03 GMT

I want to kill the person that coined the phrase "show us your tits".
Guys have no idea how degrading it is to have that yelled at you.
Like I'm really going to do that anyway.
Pathetic, immature fuckers.

I'm so sick of people.
And I really don't give a shit whose feelings I hurt because it can't be anywhere near as bad as what I'm going through right now.

Where the fuck is someone when I need them?
Not here.
They never were.

95

Mon, 04 Jul 2005 04:01:12 GMT

95 days.
95 fucking days.
95 fucking days and I screw everything up.
95 fucking days and I screw everything up for no real reason.

I always fuck things up.

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 09:55:12 GMT

I think I have a spending problem. And it's all to do with music. I spend hundreds of dollars on cds and magazines and shit that I really shouldn't buy because it's just using the money I'm meant to be saving. I want to go to Oz in Oct but I don't think I'll be able to if I keep going on this way.

Everyone has gone out and I'm home on my own. Again. It kind of sucks. As much as I love being home and left to my own devices, sometimes I want to go out and do things. I had the opportunity to but Batman Begins? Not really my idea of a fun night out. I need more exciting friends. It sounds mean but it's true. I feel they are holding me back at times.
Then again, who would want to be friends with me? I have no life.

And here we go again. Down into the never-ending spiral of self-doubt and depression.

Life's a bitch

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 06:23:22 GMT

I've hopelessly fallen for someone I can't have. How pathetic. Life isn't fair. I shouldn't have to be put through the torment of seeing them everyday and knowing they'll never be mine. I hate this. I hate my feelings. I hate life.

Life's a bitch and don't I know it.

First Entry

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 00:10:36 GMT

I've had one of these before but I never used it so I think it deleted itself or something.

So this is a new journal which (hopefully) noone that knows me will find out about. So I can write what I want. I can also be as obsessive as I want without anyone being mean.

For this first entry I shall write a list of good bands because I'm bored. And I'm going to do it in alphabetical order too.

65daysofstatic
A Perfect Circle
Apocalyptica
Atreyu
Colour Of Fire
Disturbed
Eighteen Visions
From Autumn To Ashes
Good Charlotte
HIM
The Kinison
Korn
Linkin Park
My Chemical Romance
Negative
Nine Inch Nails
Placebo
The Rasmus
System Of A Down
Turbonegro
The Used
Velvet Revolver

Of course, I like other bands but thoses are my top ones.

The best would have to be:
HIM
My Chemical Romance
The Used
Placebo

Okay, enough for today considering noone is going to read this anyway.